Well I wanna keep it brief. I'm 21 male. I have been watching porn for years now, mostly I used to watch lesbian porn. But recently for couple of months I've shifted to watching blow job videos, that is videos of girls who give blow job to other men.
Now the problem is after watching some videos, my mind is automatically replacing those girls I watch to me. So whenever I see any person, I automatically think of what would be it like to give this man a blow job, then it automatically makes these automatic videos in my mind of me having me having sex with them.
Remember: I have never been attracted to men nor have had any sex with them, its just images/videos which automatically gets trigger when I see a person in real life or on internet, I still watch women porn while I masturbate and I'm still attracted to women. But in hindsight after I think about it, my mind is replacing those girls I watch in those videos to me
Recently I tried a trick where you replace those thoughts to something positive. For example whenever I think of sex I try to automatically replace that though to me jogging alone on a beach which for me is positive. But this trick only works for so long and those thoughts return.
This also happens when I see a women too, my mind automatically imagines me having sex with that women, which is not a problem. The problem is when I see a man, then it also automatically imagines me having sex with that man.
Now I have again shifted from watching girls giving blow jobs to other men videos to just plain lesbian porn. This makes me just think of girls inside of my mind, but it still triggers that sex thought when I see men too. This has been only started since past 9-10 months, thats when I started watching BJ videos.
Is this OCD and is there a way to stop these thoughts ? Perhaps delete the sexual topic inside my brain forever or replace what triggers those automatic thoughts to something else permanently.