I have OCD and Personality Disorder NOS as well as Depression. I have intrusive thoughts quite regularly about religion in general, I feel like I have to know everything about all religions otherwise I won't be able to say what I believe with conviction. This leads me to research in depth literally every religion I can find, which has included LaVeyan Satanism which caused me to have nightmares. I'm not exagerrating when I say I honestly know about ALL religions and have declared myself a member of a significant number of them including Pentecostalism (which I was brought up as), Judaism (conservative, reform, reconstructionist and humanistic forms), Mormonism, Christadelphian, Catholicism, Community of Christ, Islam (Hanafi, Ithnaashari, Ismaili, Sufi and Salafi forms), Universal Sufism, Quakerism, Unitarianism, Sikhism, Hinduism, Taoism, Buddhism (FWBO, New Kadampa and Zen), Messianic Judaism, Neo-Paganism, Baha'i. Wicca, Zoroastrianism, Pantheism, Humanism and Metropolitan Church. Thats quite an exhausting list isn't it! My partner of 6 years has seen me go through 12 of them in the last 6 years. I quite literally am obsessed with it, sometimes I lie awake at night obsessing over it, I can't control my thoughts. I was put on Risperidone to calm my thoughts and that has worked quite well, for about 3 years I've only been into about 3 or 4 of them at any one time and my thoughts are definitely a lot calmer, but its still there, and its quite embarrasing sometimes because my friends see my obsessions and every so often I declare myself a member of a new religion. I recently got "ordained" into the Church of Spiritual Humanism and showed all my friends my ordination certificate.
On the subject of intrusive thoughts, I sometimes get unwanted thoughts that I'm a pedophile (I'm not though) and every time I see a kid I get anxiety and I avoid them, this is quite distressing because I've never had sexual attraction or sexual thoughts regarding children, its simply intrusive thoughts that I am a pedophile, it all started when I was about 14 and a toddler sat on my lap, it physically aroused me but I was a virgin and hadn't ever masturbated even by then, it was only brief but ever since then I've had these guilty thoughts plaguing me telling me I'm a pedophile when I've never ever fanstacised about children! It's very distressing!
Does anyone have similar thoughts?