Hello once again everyone,
I have an intense fear of being labeled as a deviant or some kind of monster/bad person and it seems to pop up whenever I'm sexual with a person.
Last night, I was sleeping in my car due to the odd and long hours that I work. I was talking to a girl that I matched with on a popular dating app and one thing led to another and the topic got to sex and we essentially started sexting. I got turned on so I started to masturbate in the car, of course underneath something and of course I made sure there was no one on the street as it was 3am and it only took a few minutes. I'm 99.9% sure that no one saw anything but I said god forbid someone did or god forbid that a child was walking by or something since I'm in a large city. Today I woke up feeling like some sort of Monster and feeling intense guilt for sexting and then masturbating. Can someone help me out? Give me some reassurance that I'm not a horrible person or Monster?
Thank you all on this forum. I hope all your suffering is one day alleviated.