I want to get help...but I'm scared...

So I'm fairly certain I have POCD. If you want to read my full story, I wrote a post on it.

My anxiety has gotten so bad, it's to the point where my attraction for normal guys my age has almost diminished. Like guys I found super attractive just 2 weeks ago I no longer find attractive and I don't know if it's because of the POCD and I'm just convincing myself I'm a pedophile, or if I'm actually a pedophile.

I want to reach out to my dad for help, and I'm sure he'd get me to a professional to help sort this out, but I'm TERRIFIED of what might happen. What if I actually do get to go see a professional and they just assume I'm a pedophile and don't want to help me, and then my family finds out and everyone thinks I"m a pedophile...and what if I actually am a pedophile? I can't stop thinking about this. PLEASE HELP ME

Please? Does anyone have any advice?