Guys from my little understanding,sexuality and everything that has to do with it is not 100% stable....notions of unwanted sexuality can come if you are stressing to much about it.I want to ask you straightly....when you are not under full ocd power,do you observe your actions?I believe most(and I also) dont....there exactly lies the key(not a magic solution of course),what you feel then,b it a moment a day a month or a year.I am going to say something that most may not believe...when I was an early pubescent I DID have homosexual fantasies about my peers bit older bit yunger....though I dont feel gay or any attraction to any man right now,I also had fantasies with incest taboo,rape etc,I didnt ever wanted to act upon it,it wasnt an innate desire after all,just a kink.My friend,I dont know you and your suffering,but I suffer from POCD 7 years now...dont give up take a break....what many people say for ocd ''Tell to your mind ''yes I am homosexual'''' and it will begin not to stress out about it....but then you will ofcourse doubt about whether you use a trick or just genuinely admitted that you are a homosexual.Dont get tricked,I did it on occasional times even if the fear was greater...I was like ''Yep Yep I am a pedo,little girls make me feel alright blah blah singing with unicorns''....I got out,with less stress,and guess what?I didnt even notice kids(like when I am ok) in contrast to the constant noticing when stressed and under obsessional thinking.Take care.
-- Sun Sep 11, 2016 11:40 pm --
And do you want to know what is the difference between arousal and groinal response?In my opinion and experience?
Groinal response:Feeling anxious,hedonized by the fear(meaning it induces physical arousal,not an erection though),feeling guilt,and even seeing the mental picture you get disgusted(attention here),it is created by the mere stimulus of SEX,and fortified by fear
Sexual Arousal:I see that one,i feel a fiery passion to ###$ a person and kiss him fondle him with all my being,and I get an erection as much as a genuine mental hedony
And talk about ego-dystonic sexual orientations?THE SECOND SCENARIO IS AGAIN THE VALID.These people just fear the stigma,they are ''sexually aroused(genuinely)'' by the thought....they DESIRE it,they dont hate it,they are not repulsed,they just love it but fear that they will be banned from a ''normal'' life.
I want you to do an experiment with just what I told you,use it.If you masturbate,do not for a couple of days(I used it to relieve anxiety),just stay like this,even months,and you will see that your natural personal urges begin to recollect...I did it,and I saw that I am finally attracted to teens,yes teens(I am an ephebo) and adults.....check it!!!
If I had to take in mind ALLLL the fantasies I had since I was 10-11,I would now be a homosexual,pedophile,incestuous man,coprophiliac,zoophiliac,biastophiliac man.....Am I?No...I am a heterosexual ephebophile masochist coprophiliac(as sick as it may sounds),but these interests I knew them since the beginning,I knew when they were formed,or started,I CAN TRACE THEM.And this is the biggest clue for knowing your sexuality....