Sexual OCD

My OCD is sexual in nature. I have these thoughts that EVERY women I come across I should have sex with, and if I dont make an effort to carry out these thoughts that im somehow a failure. Even though I have had wonderful gfs in my life , its not enough. Its not that I want to have sex with every women I come across. Id rather not even think of it, a matter of a fact I have a lower then normal sex drive I believe , I dont need sex everyday or even companionship. its like someone is doing the thinking for me. I hardly even go out because I hate the pressure of having to think these thoughts when I see a women. Anyone else have this problem?

If you feel the thoughts aren't coming from you, and they aren't ego-syntonic you might have an OCD problem. I don't have that specific problem, but I have frequent intrusive thoughts that are disturbing and ego-dystonic.

seems like its a tug of war between Egosyntonic and egodystonic

I think my problem originated from watching excessive porn starting at the age of 14
Feels like my mind is abit warped sexual, yet I really prefer not to even think about sex, I wish I could just go out and not think about sexual things. I just want my mind to relax...take sex out of the equation so I can focus on more important things , I cheated on several girlfriends I had, and lost them because of it. I felt that in porn I have so many girls to choose from, and this desire morphed into the real world, where all it did was hurt them and gave me a guilty couscous that still effects me today.

If you're still watching excessive porn and it is causing you problems, the best thing to do is to quit it cold turkey. I don't know why, but for a lot of OCD sufferers, we're really suggestible. If we think about something long enough, we tend to have thoughts that become like us, but they aren't really because they are intrusive and not ego-syntonic. Hope this makes sense.

Don't feel shame over these thoughts because they only make them STRONGER!