Hey Snowbud!
It's great to see that you're progressing with your OCD!
snowbud wrote:I want to know if there is any way to speed up the process?
In regards to your post, It's unfortunate that even though we with OCD want to get back to the way things were as soon as possible, it isn't easy as OCD is chronic. I agree with what Torrent said. OCD will take time to alleviate.
snowbud wrote:I do I get an instant rush of anxiety and my mind starts telling me that I'm doing it on purpose to hid my true feelings. When this happens I usually just agree with the thoughts and wait until the anxiety goes away which in some cases has proven to be really difficult.
Agreeing with the thoughts is just one part of the process. It works however you may want to approach this with other methods. Don't just agree with the thoughts, exaggerate on them! For example, if you have a thought that screams "I am gay and in denial", you would want to do something like "Oh yeah! I'm so gay I could have an orgy with a room full of women! and I bet it would be fun!" This may seem scary, but remember that thoughts are basically a string of hollow words that are instantly given a meaning by a functioning brain. Another way is to do something else. When you agree with a negative thought, find something else to do to distract yourself. Do something fun! Painting, running, drawing.. anything!
You're doing great! Just keep at it and be strong!