Does anyone else experience false memory OCD...my OCD comes in waves and usually sticks to a particular theme during these waves...it could be Harm-O one month....ROCD the next...guilt OCD after that. But the false memory is just killing me...actually....all of them kill me as I go through them and always tell myself "I would rather deal with *this* OCD" instead...that's not true. I don't want to deal with any OCD. >:(
Anyways...I was just wondering if anyone dealt with false memory OCD...there are moments where I think - for example - well this one friend isn't talking to me anymore...maybe I got drunk and slept with her boyfriend? and I cannot know whether it happened or not because a) it's false or b) I was drunk...mind you when I go through my thought record and the process and reasons as to why the thought is true and not true a lot more point to the thought being untrue. But that doesn't matter to my OCD...it just takes it and goes with it.
It's really frustrating....it always tries to destroy anything you are remotely happy about.
The other day my OCD went with the "you don't deserve to be happy or successful because of things you have done"....and then it went with reasons as to how people could try to destroy me or my happiness and it just ends up going into paranoia...
UGH. I JUST HATE THIS! Any one else can relate?
I guess I just needed to vent.