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I'm wondering about the level of compulsive behavior people with OCPD experience. I think I'm struggling pretty severely with compulsions right now? but they are not anxiety driven. Throughout the last few years the behaviors haven't been that much of a bother. Needing to do things a certain way, in a certain order, to a certain level of perfection has been great. All my managers love me etc etc. It's been getting worse though now that I don't have a job. I'll need to sit down and do something, and my brain will be like "no, here is a list of 20 other things which need to be done by 8pm and though what you want to do now is important there are other more productive things that you have to do first." Then I have to go through everything on this list by order of importance regardless of the time each thing needs to be done. Usually though doing one thing will lead to me thinking about something else that needs to be done, and instead of continuing the list of things, I have to do the task I just thought of NOW NOW NOW.
Like it's to the extent that usually, I wake up and have to do the same things every day in the same order, but now I will even ###$ that up because I will start doing something like make breakfast, and then just leave it sitting on the counter while my brain makes me finish 10 other tasks that are "more important."
It's possible it's not compulsions and I am just being bullied by my brain, but the definition of compulsions is "the action or state of being forced to do something."
I actually feel like I am not in control of my own brain anymore and I feel physically sick.
In case anyone needs clarity. I don't have and never have had OCD I don't have the fear or anxiety components, and usually am okay with how I behave.