Firstly hi to all who are reading, thanks in advance for any advice/opinions.
I'm just trying to extract myself from a 'relationship' with an N guy, it goes without saying this is painful, exhausting and i'm not having the best will power about it, but the reason for this particular post is that I may be pregnant. Ive told him this although he was aware its a possibilty already (I'll try to make this succint apologies if i ramble)
At the moment he's giving me silent treatment, its obvious that our 'relationship' wont be sustainable, he's said he'll call me to discuss this situation, arrange to meet, i'm of the mind that if i'm pregnant it would be signing myself and any child up for a lifetime of horrible drama, so purely in a logical sense i'd not want to continue the pregnancy. (please spare moral judgement here, i'm already aware what an idiot i've been)
He has always spoken and acted as if children would be an extension of his amazing and superior DNA, lipservice to it not being ideal in our situation, but more generally he seems into it in a wierd way... I get a distinct sense he would be angry if his offspring were not welcomed like the second coming.
SOO in conclusion i'm a little scared he may turn very nasty if i dont continue with the pregnancy, or maybe i'm worrying for no reason and he really couldnt care less, i'm wary of meeting him and unsure how to proceed, simultaneously i'm worried about any kind of smear campaign he might start now that i've visibly woken up to what he is and am trying to extract myself. I'd be grateful for an 'informed' opinion on his possible mindframe, of course I know people are all different but there can seem to be pretty strong thought patterns common to N's (In general i'm also interested in a 'pyschological' sense, what are the general thoughts of N men about pregnancy/children.
(of course i'm aware again that another mans feelings only apply to him, but maybe you have ideas on 'decoding' the impression he's giving me)
Thanks if you got to the end of that