Thank you to whoever said the Narcissists can be hurt.
I did beat myself over for being civil with my ex N at some point.
I broke up with him a yr and half ago and NEVER contacted him again. I vanished from the earth. Then last August he started txting me to make peace, stirring my emotions, he was missing me, we had to see each other again etc... gathering all the memories he remembered of.
I was strong and after a few days of silence I replied "forget it, my feelings are dead" That was final.
No more contact from him...... I was proud.
but 2 months later I BUMPED INTO HIM AND SMILED AND SAID HI!
What a dumb woman, right?
I was happy. Not cos of bumping into him but cos of my life. He wasn't happy to see me. He obviously wasn't over my earlier text rejection. So he just moaned hi and passed by. Indifference. Coldness...
That's where I started beating myself over the fact I ruined everything by being so nice, so weak....& that he was prolly thinking the same. What do you think? Did my smile put him off?
We bumped into each other and ignored each other about 2 months ago.
I really am ignoring him like he never even existed now.
Sighs... Wish I'd never said Hi. :/
-- Fri Jan 06, 2012 12:51 am --
By ruining everything I mean, ruined my limits, my barriers, my RESISTANCE!!! to the Narcissist. =/ And i'm scared that he felt that too.
Please reassure meeee. I want that bastard to remember me as the girl who never wanted his sorry ass back and smiled cuz detached, happy, and long gone.