'They don't give a rat's ass about themselves'.
Can you explain. I thought that was all they cared about, themselves. As a newbie I've got lot to learn.
I read you are a teenager, obviously highly intelligent.
My ex NPDH was a fragile N, he suffered rapid mood swings, I now realize that he swung between dysphoria, and euphoria. Was he a particularly happy person no, did he suffer, I suppose he did. I would have felt sorry for him but he was selfish, uncaring, obnoxious and aggressive.
My ignoring, malignant, NM however has never been depressed. She lives in her own little world, pretty much oblivious to the real world. She is a happy N. Which is annoying as she was a horrible, 'mother'.
I also have a friend who is a sub-criminal psychopath. A ruthless, highly intelligent, business man he has made lots of money. A workaholic, he has had many projects. I asked him if he'd enjoyed them or missed any of them. He said no, he had no real interest in any of them. He was simply out to make as much money as possible by any means possible.
He was trouble at school, a teacher asked him 'what makes you a better fighter than anyone else?' He said 'I have no fear, other people are frightened of getting hurt. I'm not.
He could be very violent.
He loved the NS of being important, the attention the flash cars got him he feeds off drama. Loves a court case of which he has had many, he likes the challenge. The things that would stress a normie just excite him.
He describes people who are no use to him as 'empty buckets' worthless and has no time for them. He says to be successful you need to know how to 'play people'
I don't think he is happy or unhappy, he has not got enough depth of feeling for that. He feels a lot of anger, particularly towards people he believes had 'done him over' ie got money out of him.
He has told me he would kill his ex wife, or have her killed if he could get away with it, as she is entitled to much of his money. She knows this, so has lodged a letter with solicitor to be opened in the event of her suspicions death. He said there is enough information in the letter to put him away for 50 years.
I despise him yet---------- I am fascinated this creature man/machine. I have learnt from him as I'm fairly naive.
He says he loves me, (he doesn't he doesn't love anyone) but he needs me for Ns
The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.