Nieve520 wrote: I have noticed that one of the traits of an N is "Becoming easily hurt and rejected" yet, it does not come across in your writing that this is true for you.
Do you consider yourself further on the spectrum and closer to a psychopath? have you been hurt by others? are you shamed and humiliated by crisicism. Shame and deep insecurity are supposed to be an underlying causes of NPD. do you feel that this is true for you. Is your attitude about yourself accurately portrayed in your writing? You have stated you are a self-aware N, but I think you may have some psychopathic tendencies.
Nieve520 wrote:i just remembered that there are more than one cause/type scenario: the type overvalued and spoilt by their parents w/o the secret shame, and the degraded/trauma/abuse type with the core of shame. I dunno if the former is supposed to be insecure on the inside...
Nieve520 wrote:"Why do you say I have some psychopathic tendencies? Not offended.. simply curious."
the simple callousness w/ which you describe nons, how you use and discard them. how you consider us a different species. The N i have been most recently involved with was more manipulative and possessive of people. Ns may use their supply as an object but they still consider them "their" objects. They get jealous. You say that you do not, nor could you ever, care in any way. Even Ns invest energy in their supply people. Ns I have been involved with often want their supply people to become attached to them to ensure that they will be available for future use. Also there was an extreme sensitivity of how they thought they were being perceived by others. I don't know if this is true for you in real life.
Maybe I am misunderstanding. I realize not all Ns are exactly the same and their must be some variation among individuals.
also you said that Ns get married only for appearances, but I feel that this is not entirely true. Something makes them pick the person they choose, who will raise their spawn and pass on their genetic material. also like I said, Ns I have known are more possessive and jealous than explained by "simply for appearances". I have read that losing a source of supply can upset an N greatly whether non or not, because to lose a source of supply is to be faced with one's own inner feeling of worthlessness/insecurity etc etc and you don't seem to mention ever being bothered by this.
do you have any insight into the root cause of your NPD?
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