My intro

Morning, afternoon, evening, wherever you are.

I've been diagnosed with NPD + BPD traits earlier this year. I did not like receiving that stamp at first, but reading up on NPD, I realized it fit me to a T. Speaking of, the whole self-awareness issue, I kind of knew I was narcissistic but thought everyone else was just as egotistical and lacking in empathy as I was, so I didn't see it as a huge deal really. To me, the whole narcissism thing was a bit of a joke, something that I often joked around about, but I didn't realize how serious it was until the psychiatrist I was seeing pointed this out - that not everyone had pathological narcissism. That was a major blow to my huge, albeit somewhat fragile ego.

The more I read about NPD, the more sinister it seems, truth be told. But it all makes sense - the grandiosity, entitlement, envy, feelings of being unique and hidden animosity for everyone in the world made complete sense. I will say this, though, I never intended to hurt anyone; I am not sadistic.

There's my intro, I 'spose. Working on myself has been quite an ordeal, but I've made some progress in therapy. Not enough, but some.

Pleasure to meet you all.

Welcome from another Fragile N.