Eight wrote:I was told that in an impossible situation I have only 3 choices:
I can change it.
I can leave it.
I can accept it.
That is a very interesting approach to the problem. The problem with N's (and I've seen it explicitly in my father) is that they believe in a sense of entitlement, that things are rightfully demanded and not earned. Most of the time, changing it or leaving it is incredible difficult. I know that my father always needs the last say, and believes he has the more educated, superior and well-defined approach. He claims that it all comes from experience, but refuses to let me divulge experiences of my own.
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I also had a massive feeling of resentment against my father until now. I would complain to my mother (who was very compassionate about the situation) about his excessive lecturing, self-deserving attitude and (sometimes) ignorance - as to how much he discredited my intelligence. Is your father regularly engaged in business interstate.etc I know that i developed the initial resentment from that. He was never home, but expected that I would be completely admirable towards him when he returned. Whenever I confronted him after being lectured (for 20 minutes + at a time), I couldn't help but lose myself and rage/cry. I think that stemmed from a lack of self-confidence, but the confidence only really builds with growing independence. As you said, you don't particularly want to bond with your father, but eventually there shouldn't be a need to.
Australianne wrote:He has no power over you other than the power you choose to give him. OK perhaps he's financially supporting you right now, but your emotions are your own. You will learn to do this in time. Everything that happens in your head is out of his control.
The resentment still existed due to me not being able support myself financially. Whenever I wasn't overtly gracious about meals, or food in the fridge, or opportunities to go to dinner with my parent's friends, I was told that I was "taking advantage of the lifestyle". In fact, I was doing the opposite by expressing freedom of choice. In the end, you must show respect, but make sure you are entirely in control of your own emotions. Every argument may bring you to your knees, but...
As you indirectly prove that you are independent, he will realise that you have become whatever "he planned" for you. Of course, you will have become your own person and not his - but at last he may relax, and you won't be bothered so much. It's very difficult to convince a parent that you are no longer a child, in any situation, but time should tell. It's a rollercoaster for sure. I really hope things work out for you.