help me do I have this?

I'm afraid I have munchausen syndrom or factitious disorder. I do things for attention and have my whole life. I've been hospitalized 3 seperate times in psychiatric hospitals. Once for a month. Here are the things I have done for attention, What do you think?

age 7 Prayed for a week to be raped in the bathroom of my gymnastics class, I prepared for it, and was very dissapointed when it didn't happen. I wanted someone to take care of me and rescue me, I wanted to be taked care of

Age 15 giving myself black eyes and going to school looking for attention.

age 15-20 cutting my arms, I wanted people to notice and be concerned

age 23 giving myself bloody noses around my roommates and claiming I didn't know how it started.

age 25 Faked an attack from my brother. Hit my head with a bottle repeatedly and cut it with a razor, I got drunk and went to my home where my roomates were and pretened to have a concussion for 3 days. Went to the er and pretended to have a concussion and had an MRI

Age 26-38 Developed anorexia, I believe it intially stared for attention and I still seek attention from it

Age 36 started cutting my labia and was depressed and was admitted to a hospital for a month, where I continued to steal plastic knives and cut myself. I knew this looked seriouse and I wanted people to think I needed help.

age 37 Overdosed on lamictal after I had developed a rash. My psychiatris told me to stop taking it immediatly and instead I overdosed on it. I wanted to have a worse reaction something more seriouse

Age 37 overdosing on medication for attention, wanted to get back into the hopital.

I'm 38 now and am in my eating disorder again, I want people to be concered and take care of me.

Hi, hlh73! We can't give you a diagnosis here, but it certainly sounds like something is wrong. It's ok to want attention and for someone to love you. Do you have a therapist or psych doctor that you could talk to about this? You are brave for opening up about it and admitting that you have a problem. Now, you have to try and find a way to heal or get things under control.

lol doesn't not getting any comments on this make you upset since no one is giving you attention?

Don't harass this poster, manipulationiskey.

Thanks Jasimn for your reply. I do have a psychiatrist that I might tell this stuff to next time I see him.

Good luck! You can print your post and use it as a guide for what you will say to him. It's going to be ok.