First, I need to apologize because I didn't realize that the one response was from Ladyswan and so I wound up responding as if it was from Crackedgirl. My apologies for the confusion.
I have appreciated responses from both of you.
Now that I've cleared up that...
I have decided that it is not in my best interest to leave the state and go to where I was considering possibly relocating. It is a far drive, for one, and I am not up to that right now.
As far as the issues with my mother go - I have been having some difficulty dealing with it lately. I want to get back into therapy, and I tried today to reconnect with the therapist I saw back in March. However, she is not taking new clients so I would have to be reassigned to a new therapist and RE-DO the two hour intake assessment. Okay. However, I have a ten dollar back balance with them (of which I was unaware) and that will have to be paid before I can even be scheduled. Ten dollars doesn't sound like much, but to me it is a lot right now.
Therapy will have to be postponed but I feel I need it asap.
The amount of destruction placed upon my life by my mother is sometimes unbearable. It feels as though I should be able to prosecute for this. Sometimes I cannot even explain it to anyone because I don't have enough (or the correct, perhaps) words to explain it all. WHO does this kind of thing to their own daughter???? It is hurtful. It is sickening!