was i a victim?

i've recently been researching mspb in trying to make sense of my own childhood

it seems there was a period of time in which my father was pretty much absent and in that time i was a very sick child

i remember more of my mother telling me how sick i was than actually being sick

i remember constantly missing school and going to doctors and having tests and nothing being wrong

not only physically but pyschologically

my mother is the constant caretaker and it seems whenever she is the caretaker of someone she is always getting attention for it

me the sick baby when i got older my sick grandmother and now my father who has had a complete menatl breakdown

i suspect i was a victim of mspb but how do i prove it

i have had many medical condions that can not be named tons of test for things i did not have

when i got older i stopped getting as sick but by that time i think i had started to develop psychopsomatic illness

my mother has always been almost happy when i am ill a little too eaget to care for me to the poitn that as i got older i began to fear telling her about it or even going to doctors

now as an adult i self injure
i think that i was a victim of msbp but i have no way to prove it and no one to talk about it with
its this horrible thing to acuse your mother of something like that

its a rare disorder and it doesnt seem like there is mmuch info out their or support

i just want to know what happened
if anyone has any advice on how i can find out more please let me know

that you got the above posting and found Julie Gregory's book SICKENED... don't be afraid to call a spade a spade, it really happens

I've been checking claims in Sickened just as TheSmokingGun.com did with A Million Little Pieces by James Frey.

I've obtained official documents from the USA, newspaper cuttings, birth and death certificates, SSD records, driver's licence, pension and employment records, war service records, obituaries and cemetery records, photographs of homes, of individuals, medical records and reports, holiday photographs, photographs of family celebrations and get-togethers, copies of correspondence and an independent assessment of the medical records published in the book.

So far, with what I've been able to garner, where it's possible to double-check claims in the book, these claims have been shown to be fabricated.

I have sent Random House US and UK the documentary evidence.

Jenny1471 wrote:Hello, do you have a therapist you could talk to about this? It may be good to talk about it with someone professional, who you can totally open up to with no repurcussions. It sounds like you have had a difficult time of it so if you start exploring your past, I would suggest you do it in a safe environment.

Maybe I could also recommend the book 'Sickened' by Julie Gregory. You say a lot of things in this post that remind me of Julie's past. Maybe it'd help detangle things a little for you. I would agree with you that there is not much help around for this illness. I have been searching on Amazon and have found a few books. Hopefully they'll be helpful - I will let you know.

Let us know how things are going?

Some disparities. first off: you did research and then are trying to "prove it". You mentioned trying to "prove it" twice in your post. Prove it to whom? Yourself? To others? Do you want to testify against your parents?
Also, brian said that sickened was fabriated? Where are reliable sources.

Finally, I am in a somewhat similar situation. My parents constantly try to convince me of disorders I don't have. There's a lot going on for me:
1)I'm trying to come to terms with what is real and what were some aliments I did have. Almost all of them were fictitious.

2)I'm trying to deall effectively and productively with the anger I have towards my parents.

3)I'm trying to discover a way how to deal with them. Should I tell them about their condition? They wouldn't believe it. Shouldn't I just walk away from them? Would expressing my feelings to them about being a victim of MBPS be the best thing to do?

4) I'm trying to move on effectively so that I don't develop the disorder myself.

Came across this 2 years since you posted, but......

I was watching Oprah today and her guest was some security expert who kept making the point that humans are the only species who regularly dismiss that "hmmmmm, something's not right" instinct for various reasons (don't want to offend, make waves, might come off as a bitch, yadda yadda). He pointed out the fact that that 6th sense is generally spot on.

Chances are, if you're pretty certain in your head that your parent may have been guilty of MBPS, there's a decent chance they were. Like most people who are somewhat certain and read this site, you will always question yourself and wonder what kind of monster you are for accusing a parent of such an atrocity.

Personally, I'll probably never be able to resolve it or know if MBSP was actually the case (it happened in the 70's), but all the signs, and Mom's psychological makeup, seem to indicate that it's likely (plus there's that pesky that 6th sense).

The thing you have to ask yourself, going forward, is does it really matter? Guessing you don't live with your folks anymore. You make your own decisions now (and I'm guessing it's not to be someone who poisons their family). While I don't agree with "forgiving", as it seems like you're giving them a pass, I whole heartedly believing in giving it up as something you'll probably never come to terms with (with whomever did it and the reasons why - like someone who could murder or torture kittens or turn down a million dollars), but something that isn't being done to you now, soooo....

Just be the kind of person you think people should be. Don't let the past influence the present.