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Can anyone at all relate to this and offer advice?

Postby Lapis » Wed Aug 01, 2012 8:35 pm

I didn't know where to describe my problem, I looked through all the sections in this forum but it does not fit into any category so I decided to put it here..
I'll try to be brief..
So I lead a pretty normal life, I study, look for a job etc. But every three or four days I do something crazy. It usually involves drinking, last time I got into the car of the person I didn't even know and only came home at night. I have been lucky so far that nothing awful has happened to me as a result of these episodic crazy behaviours, but I don't want to live like that anymore, and these episodes happen regularly every three to four days. I just have this impulse which I can't resist, life starts to seem boring, so I go to the liqure store, drink then go "on an adventure" call someone i don't even like or know that well and go all out etc.. The next day I feel awful about myself, I am ashamed and hate myself for my behaviour and I swear to god it won't happen again, but it does .. every three to four days.. And I cannot help it, I tried controlling this behaviour, isolated myself from many people, gave my debit card to my mom, asked her to take my phone so i can't call the people I wanna call, but my attempts have been unsuccessful.. I seriously don't know what's going on.. Do I somehow need more stimulation than regular people, and normal everyday activities and little pleasures of life (like going for a coffee with yourfriend, going to a new cafe or for a walk) are simply not enough for me? I do enjoy these activities, but no matter how often I get this "normal intertainment" it doesn't seem enough to stop me from the episodes or reckless behaviour every few days..
The rest of the time in-between I am a normal person, I like to read, I enjoy studying, especially science related subjects and i spend a lot of time doing it, i am rather quiet, I read, excercise, swim, I don't feel bored or anything like that and if those people who I call to do something crazy with call me on any other day I have no problem not picking up the phone or saying that I'm busy.. But then this impulse comes on and I feel this urge to have crazy and uncotrollable fun..
Do you have any suggestions at what might be the cause of the problem and what I can do about it?
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Re: Can anyone at all relate to this and offer advice?

Postby Teafood » Thu Aug 02, 2012 2:02 am

Why and why would you be ashamed of getting drunk and going out with people you barely know every three days? Getting drunk and having fun doesn't hurt anyone, in fact I'd bet your behavior increases the happiness of the people you go out with.
What is it about your behavior specifically that you dislike?
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Postby Shaidah » Thu Aug 02, 2012 8:48 am

I wouldn't know much to suggest to you.. But if I had this problem, I'd first read about some personality disorders, if this has been a regular thing. It's the first thing that came to mind if I would try to classify it.
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Re: Can anyone at all relate to this and offer advice?

Postby Vandel » Thu Aug 02, 2012 8:54 am

Bouts of isolation met with spurious city benders. It's not ucommon for people not used to isolation to get cabin fever. Most people have trouble sitting still for a few minutes let alone a few days. Arguably how you're going about these 'adventurers' is definitely dangerous. Well, not so much dangerous as it is irresponsible and disregardful to self.

Is there self-esteem, self-image issues? A glass of red wine a night with a meal has some health benefits. But binging every few days cannot be good for the braincells or your liver. You'd be better off drinking in moderation daily than the blur-minded binges of glory you're seeking.

Other escapades and whatnot can be replaced with other 'extracurricular' resposible activites through safer means. You wouldn't be writing here if you didn't think it was a problem.

Keep a journal... you said it appear cyclic. Monitor stressors, feelings, and other states of being prior to the binges. Is they're cyclical or repeatable processes here causing the cycle? I've seen stranger things caused by diet... I had a cousin who couldn't process pineapple properly, it would cause her to write everything upside and backwards perfectly for about 24 hours after eating it. If you put it in a mirror and inverted it, it made perfect sense.

Not that I'm trying to trivilaze anything... but there's not really anything that suprises me. More so, there's usually an answer if you look for it.

Does this tie to unmet hopes and dreams? A broader sense of loneliness?

My present wife has a very defined weekly schedule every 28 that follows her montly cycle. 1 week of normal, followed by 1 week of severe anxiety and impulse, followed by 1 week always started when she bites of her nails, this starts a very disturbed week that involves a lack of patience, exacerbated crying spells and anxiety and anger... next week follows self-esteem issues, and a mix of the prior 3 weeks. Where she starts all over. It's been 7 years and I still have to remind her what week it is when she's having problems.

I have severe disorders of all sorts, which cause me to pace, lack focus, among other things... we are a byproduct of a great many things that can go wrong at anytime. It's just a matter of figuring out what it is...

You just have some quirks that need some monitoring to start looking for a cause. When you find a cause you can work out a solution. Or at least a method of management.

Keep your head up. You're more normal than you think.
just me... trying to be... something more than I was yesterday. be well everyone.
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