beautyfrompain wrote:When I was in inpatient, two of the therapists there thought that since I stayed out of the drama and all the girls there would come to me for advice ( *pats self on back* Thank you, thank you.), I would do really well volunteering at a local crisis hotline. And then when I was in outpatient, the therapist there brought it up as well. I'd love to do something like that, since I can't tell you how many times I've stared at the phone in desperate need of help, but I was too scared to call a hotline. But am I...uhhh...stable enough for it? I've been in touch with the place, and on the application they sent me I noticed that I'd have to put down that I attempted suicide, been depressed for 10 years, am in therapy, etc. I feel like I'm pretty in control of things at the moment, mental-wise, if that helps. The hotline I'm contemplating volunteering for is for teens to call into, so I'd definitely will feel comfortable talking with them. Would I do well with it because I can relate and would be totally non-judgemental, or would my problems mixed with theirs not mesh so well?
This is the reason you should do it because you CAN relate to them in a non - judgmental manner. I would say to follow your instincts, your heart, your inner feelings, what ever you want to do. If it feels right for you, go ahead and volunteer. If at any point in your life, you do not wish to do it anymore remember that you are under no obligation to continue to volunteer. Whatever you do in life, you are in harmony with yourself when you act on your feelings and not through the guilt or self image of obligations or that you "must" do something or that you "should" do something.
I would not share with them that you actually tried to commit suicide or that you go to therapy or that you blah. blah blah ....... I do not have a problem sharing my "lows" with people but one usually has to build a repport with someone and remember this a hotline. It is not a face to face. You can not see them or touch them.
However, you can always comfort them and say, "I know how you feel, I had someone very close to me go through the same exact situation". And you did that someone was yourself
Best of luck to you and I say: GO FOR IT but do not loose yourself in the process. If it gets to be a pressure and not a pleasure, listen to yourself and stop at that point.
Whitney Houston wanted to stop singing a long time ago and be with her child but her fans and her manager did not allow her and she did not say, "Okay stop, I have had enough." She paid the ultimate price for not listening to her inner self.
I encourage you to do so, but if at anytime you want to stop, walk away and all will be well (((hugs))) hope this helps with whatever you decide.