Neuro-psycholgical screenings are so unfair...

I hate job applications. I hate it that I have to be scrutinized on a behavior that is not normally me. I'm a person who really gets nervous on interviews and can't really sell myself. I hate the person behind the Guilford-Zimmerman Temperament Survey. Why should I be judged on a generalizing survey?

I had to take this test among others and it's really long so I totally forgot my whole plan of lying and say things are "normal" with me. I just wanted to finish early so I answered instinctively. Then, came the interview....What's the point of interviewing me if the verdict of me passing or failing will be based on those tests? So what if my result's graph show low activity level (almost baseline) I've done more than the other trainees. So what if my social levels and leadership levels are almost baseline on that graph... I'm the person who danced something that is against my tradition for the sake of social. I'm the person who likes to teach the students. So what if the results show I get mad easily? I'm the person who is patient enough to calm myself.

I wish I could say those in the interview but I'm the person who can't even say no to a salesman. Now, I don't know if I should curse or cry or whatever. And they are saying I shouldn't feel incompetent for life...Don't say such things when you don't think I'm competent yourselves. Liars.

Liars.

Judgmental people. Why are you even a science?

So to other people out there. Lie. Lie. And lie some more.

There is definitely alot of bullshitting when I do an interview. Sometimes i'm on and can pull it off, but most of the time I just fail. I'm lucky that I have a job that is decent so I don't have to go through that hell of interviewing.

Right. Shyness aside I doubt it that I can even appeal. They'll probably take it as a sign of a mentally ill person known as denial.

I would have been more optimistic hadn't I overheard the screener saying that it doesn't matter if people take the test again. Personalities can't be changed as they are in born. I can't say it out loud because of my case but deep inside my mind I was like... "What kind of a psychiatrist are you?! Ever heard of psychological therapy? Are you even a psychiatrist? Are you just joking?"

People are more than just a lump of protein. We are a complex bunch of protein. Our behavior is not entirely genetic. One character of living things is adaptability. We can adapt. We can change. We can overcome or "disabilities" if we put our mind on it.

>:( I'm not going to let some stranger diagnose my fate into nothingness. Fail me now and I'll just come back. Depression is such an awful state and I refuse to return.

I hope other rejects will read this and get additional courage to fight. Of course, I still recommend lying....unless of course you have the tendency to cause harm in which case do yourself and others a favor and seek help.