Hello.
So I have this really weird problem that sprang up recently and I'm not sure what it is, how to fully express it, or what to really do about it.
So I was watching a horror movie called The Thing(Look it up if you really want or don't know it), and thought nothing of it. Just a relatively idolized film for it's shock value and suspense.
But then I started getting a little too into it and thought of something: What if there's an organism out there in the universe that's similar to The Thing? what if it's actually real?(Note similar as in Aliens, The Flood, etc other seemingly fictional but similar organisms).
Then came a downward spiral of me just completely isolating myself even more than usual, and becoming overly suspicious of every little thing. I near-completely can't trust people in person, but I force myself too because I have no other choice.
I hide whatever issues I may have well enough. No one around me actually suspects anything.
I spent hours googling stuff about the possibility of how these nightmares could be real, did googling on how viruses work, etc basically did a binge of what a hypochondriac would do w a medical dictionary.
I've had stuff like this happen before, but the exact focus was different. It always ends with either.
A.Fear of Global Catastrophe
or
B.Fear of my body(the only link I have to this world) being overrun or otherwise rendered against my control.
Both have to do with the fear of the unknown and the fear of death(as the root of all fears anyhow).
Is this some type of phobia? OCD maybe? Paranoia? or maybe even delusions or something similar? Doesn't seem all that delusional or paranoid if this massive universe can indeed have some messed up stuff in it(Humanity's Ilk notwithstanding).
I want to completely isolate myself. Maybe even suicide one day or something. Or travel far off.
This is recent, but the general feelings of discontent, annoyance, anger, and the uneasiness and the derealization have been for a long time.
Any good science websites I could use to figure this out? These possibilities? Any advice on how to stop caring about these thoughts?
I'm open to any suggestions. I'll describe things more accurately should the need arise.