Long story short, dxed with MDD, but only recently decided to go cold turkey on all of my antidepressants as i felt that while they helped me to be somewhat functional, they were not leading me to recovery since i had continuous meltdowns every month or so (it's a cycle).
Anyway, i have characters in my head. 4 distinct characters, to be precise. I made a forest for them to live in and if i concentrate hard enough i can feel where they are and call them or ask for advice or manifest them.
One of them has been yelling at me and going on and on about me not taking my medication on a daily basis and it's driving me nuts. She is incredibly pissed at me for my poor decision making skills. I do not recall their presence being so "strong" as compared to when i was on the antidepressants. I was aware of them, but they didn't bother me as much. Can't say the same now though.
I do not get to see my psych until a month later or so, so that kind of goes down the hatch.
Would be nice if people could direct me to the right forum cos i'm not too sure this falls under, but yeah i understand that you're not allowed to diagnose people as per the rules.
Just wondering if anyone has a similar experience and would like to share on how to cope with these characters. I know that the one who is angry at me at the moment would probably calm down once i start taking my meds again, but being the stubborn person i am, i don't want to take it because i know that it isn't helping much.