Slowly stabilizing after about 40 years of mental illness!
Dissociative Disorder unlocked! Just happened with therapists; bout a few months ago!
PTSD is running around my head and slowly slipping out!
No way to describe coming back to relationship and activities!
Almost no resentments as I come back; thanks to years of 12 step work and a high power to turn to! And the doors of those meetings always open!
Forgiveness being the biggest last key to this fractured equation!
Why Im writing;
As I come out of mental illness symptoms; I see it! I see it everywhere! The sickness of others and I cant help them! Or, the child abuse and neglect of small children by sociopathic mothers that don't know they are pathological! And so it goes!
And I know some of these small kids; but cannot help! I must pray for them and stay out of it! Its psychological neglect! Who knows what else these kids are going through; being destroyed! And I can do nothing about it! And yet, through prayer! One more day on planet earth!
Ive written a lot of blogs everywhere! Thousands of them! And that has made a huge difference! I would not have the recovery I have today without this writing ability and the 12 step rooms! Ive been to 1800 thousand million meetings!
Im getting better, yet, the women at the store still shuns me; and many don't appreciate me!
At a meeting birthday, the other night! A women got up for status reasons, and publicly called me a women hater in front to all the group!
So, it goes!
Im still on planet earth as I get better!
Yet today, at an all women's meetings Ive gone to for years! Im the only man in the group; I was praised for my healing and direction toward relationships! And these women have seen me at my worst!
I must take it all to God and stay out of it!
And its Gratitude; Thank you God, Thank you God, Thank you God!
So it goes! One more day on planet earth!