***I do want to clarify that I'm aware ASD is not a mental illness, I just thought this forum would be where I would get the most dynamic feedback from anyone else on this site. There are also specific reasons with this problem that could be related to mental health issues.
I'm trying to confirm or refute an Asperger's diagnosis I received when I was much younger, which led me into specialized education. Testing over the years showed some consistency (even though the depth wasn't always there with the reasons why) and that's why I was still eligible for that type of education. I started thinking that I might be wishful thinking, trying to find positive reasons that give me hope for my life. When I posted the thread a couple of people thought I was in denial. I started wondering if my depression and anxiety were creating this shitstorm in my head and throwing me into some sort of loop that I can't break free from, which was what one poster alluded to. It's true in some cases but with the ASD and the negative energy surrounding that I just thought it was strong values against it. However, the thread evolved into a very interesting and at times intense discussion and left me wondering if I really am driving myself crazy, injecting false hope, being illogical, and part of some depressive loop that is forcing me to waste time on things that aren't productive.
Here's the thread: asperger-syndrome/topic145685.html
It picks up around the bottom of the first page, and really starts turning into a debate once the third page comes around. I explain a lot of my reasoning behind my mental health issues, and certain reasons that could possibly be against an ASD diagnosis.