I'm new here so this might sound stupid but I just googled "why do I crave attention" and it came up with this. The only thing is that it said it is something women generally have and I am a straight male.
Anyway whenever I'm at a party or a social setting I try my hardest to get everyones attention especially if there are women there and if I can't get it I get extremely agitated.
I usually do it in a way that doesn't make me look needy so it looks like I don't really care about the girl, like I will pretend to tell my friend a joke but I will stand close to a girl and say it quite loud so she hears it and laughs.
Most of the time it works and I end up getting the girls full attention but when it doesn't I have to do everything I can in order to get it and I end up doing really stupid $#%^.
I don't even date the girls, I usually just keep talking to them until I feel like they really like me and give me all their attention and then get bored with them and try to get attention from someone else and the cycle goes on and on.
I might sound like an asshole but I feel like this is self destructive and I don't want to be like this.
The reason I'm here is because this girl didn't give me her full attention on a Christmas party and I'm still pissed off about it. I don't even care about the girl but I keep thinking about the fact that she ignored me and I feel very uneasy.
She did talk to me but she was also talking to these other guys which pissed me off.
The next day she tried texting me and I was like ###$ you go talk to those other guys, and then she just stopped talking to me which pissed me off even more. Usually they get upset and start apologizing or something but she just moved on.
Then I uploaded a bunch of topless pics and ab pics to facebook to try get her to comment or something but she's still ignoring me.
I don't even want to date her or anything, I just want to know that she likes me so I can move onto someone else but I'm wasting all my time obsessing over her.
While I was trying to get her attention at the party I managed to attract these other girls but their attention wouldn't do it for me.
The girl isn't even that hot, she's not ugly but compared to me she looks like someone below my standards, so it pisses me off even more thinking she can do this to me.
Anyway I probably sound like an idiot but that's why I'm posting this anonymously on a forum and not telling anyone in real life how I feel.
What can I do about this?