I posted this in Borderline personality disorders as well, but I think it might belong here more.
I've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and histrionic personality disorder a while back and since then, I've been able to determine when I'm experiencing a symptom and dealing with it accordingly. It made it so that the symptoms are less frequent and intense since I am able to recognize them
One that I'm unable to shake off through is my intense emotional response to new relationships and my dismissal of old relationships due to these new relationships. For example, I consider myself polyamorous and so I have multiple sexual and romantic relationships. I am seeing four people at the moment, and at the beginning of every single of those relationships I had a very intense emotional connection. I wanted to see them all the time but as I would get other relationships, or simply as time went by, I would lose interest and replace them.
So essentially, my original intense emotions seemed to be false or clouded and turned to disinterest, and this within a few weeks or months.
I have no idea if this is linked to my personality disorders as I am no longer being treated or followed for these, and this has been happening for years, probably since I was a teenager.
I have searched for how to deal with this type of symptom but to no avail. It seems that all the sites in regards to personality disorders are very good at saying a quick phrase about a symptom without giving you tools on how to cope.
I need to be able to deal with this and to be able to differentiate between these "fake" momentary intense emotions from real long lasting ones because I'm entering a sort of relationship with a man who I work with and who I really like. I don't want to express these emotions I'm feeling because I'm afraid that they won't last and I'll have to backtrack later (which has happened many times in the past) but sometimes they're so intense that I just want to scream at how happy and safe I am when I'm in his arms. We met two and a half months ago, and started as friends. Since the begining, we shared intimate details about our mental health, our issues, our lives.A month and a half ago, we started seeing each other and sleeping together, without actually categorizing our relationship (we haven't said we've been dating, and we always refer to each other as friends)
So I guess what I'm asking for is tools and tips/tricks on how to go about this.
Any help or insight will help. If I need to give any additional details, please let me know