Hello everyone,
I have been in therapy for the last four years. I had a great therapist, I feel that we have worked through many things and being in therapy helped me in many ways.
About a month and a half ago I got a call from my therapist about canceling the upcoming appointment. She had a medical emergency procedure coming up and she said that she will be away for a month recovering. She gave me 2 referrals in case I needed to talk to someone in the meantime.
If you asked me in the past what reaction I might had to this, I would of told you "stuff happens, no big deal". But in reality I had a very rough first week, felt kind of devastated. This brought up a lots of feelings and issues that would be good to explore. I am learning how to bear through feelings (to feel them all the way) and soothe myself (sometimes with the help of this board)
I have lost 4 very close people in my family the last 3 years, a 7 year personal relationship ended when I entered therapy. So I had a lots of loss and grief to plow through.
I am afraid of my therapist dying. I have not heard from her, she said she will call when she is ready. I do not want to bug her. I called the other numbers she gave me, one never called back, the other one was kind of rude.
I found a therapist trough my insurance, I have an appointment tomorrow. It's just so hard to start all-over again. With my old therapist I just started having what some might call "transference" and we just started digging very deep. Not a good time to stop. Anyways...has anyone had a loss of the therapist?