Hello, for as long as I can remember I have dealt with anxiety especially when it comes to relationships. All of my relationships have failed due to my anxiety and pushing my SO away. A little about me, I'm a 28 year old male and have had anxiety for the major part of my life due to some things that have happened to me in the past. I've come to terms with what has happened and don't hold and grudges, but there is still that repressed part of my life and spikes my anxiety.
I have bad trust issues with women, and it's. It like I don't trust them...most of the time I never get a reason not to trust the person I am with. I feel like I am in this constant feedback loop from hell, for some reason my mind will make up these little stories and eventually snowball into a catastrophic event. Anyhoo, I am talking to someone right now and I absolutely adore her. She knows of my issues and given the things that happen she decided to stick by my side and try to patiently help me through everything. I know that if I don't get past my anxiety I will loose her, and that's something I don't want to happen because she is a gem.
If there is anyone out there listening, anyone out there wanting to share their story about overcoming this hellish nightmare I would love to listen.
Johnny,
Anxious and ready.