Turned on by thinking I'm a woman

First of all I just want to thank everyone who responded. I haven't checked my posts in a while but I have been going to see a therapist for a while now. He is mainly for sexual addiction. Or in my case, cybersex and porn, etc. so after seeing him for a while, i've discovered my arousal is pretty much just linked to shame. Guys, girls, it doesn't matter. As long as I'm treated poorly, I get aroused. Which is kind of terrible now that I recognize it because when I get aroused, i break down afterwards. Then I calm down and get over it and then another day it happens again. for those who just thought it was something where I want to avoid thinking I'm gay, i know that's not the case. in fact, it would just make my life simpler lol. I have actually fooled around with a male friend when I was younger and it did less for me than messing around with women. It just never occured to me that my arousal tied into being degraded but after talking to my therapist and a few appointments I tried imagining myself in different situations, with women, men, etc. as long as it meant I was being hurt in some way, it worked. I became aroused. Now I just have to find a way to get past that. if there even is a way. But I really do appreciate everyone who answered my post because any point of view is appreciated.

There may be some relevant posts about humiliation from the angle of it being a fetish? fetishes/ In which case this wouldn't be something to "get past" as such. But just one part of what makes you you. Now that you're able to explore it more directly, it might be that roleplay or consensual [safe!] forms of humiliation might arouse. Without being harmful to anyone or negative in any way.

But that's probably best talked through with your therapist. It might be that the sexual addiction and past porn use are still feeding into this. And that it'll change again as you tackle those.