Xdude
I know not whether I despair for you or envy you, to still be talking to your ex HPD.
Do you still get sickening butterflies? Does your heart leap when you receive a text or call from her?...Do you hear the lambs at night?...sorry I felt like Hannibal Lecter asking such impertinent questions...I am just putting myself in your position.
And I must comment...surely it is so different now you are not ignorant to her condition. You are no longer the blind being led by the blind...Now you see where she leads you. Now you must be surely be her guide? You know the path you have walked...do you take her back to the path you both have walked, and open her eyes and show her the footprints...do you show her where she wandered from the established path? Nay where she ran from!
And if you do...do you see her eyes wander to that place that calls her, and grip her tightly and pull her taught?
Sometimes I let her wander ...run from our path...often...and often I would not be far behind her and would catch her before she became too lost. Sometimes I wouldn't let her wander...unlike those before me, they laid themselves out like petals on the path before her and ignored anything that happened off the path because they were grateful she had returned to 'their' path...again and again.
I would tell her straight...No your 'F&cking not!; And if you do!!!!' Not aggressively just firmly...and she listened....again God knows what she was like when I wasn't about!!
Xdude Imagine if you knew what you do now about HPD back then when you met her...Imagine that! I find myself asking this question And to you too Mark...Given all you both know now, Would you of pursued her, back then?
My answer is yes...without a doubt...you know why...Again I have said it before I knew she was different...and when I weigh everything up...yeah I would I really really REALLY WOULD!