Long story short, I am 27 and I have been married to my spouse for a couple of months. The abuse started out with him breaking my personal belongings and then the emotional and physical abuse ensued. The abuse got so bad I ended up packing all my belongings and leaving for about a month. During the month I was gone of course he begged me to come back home, I just didn't think he would change so I stayed gone. I told him the only way I would come back is if he made a serious effort to change his abusive ways. He ended up going to counseling (which he still goes) and got put on different medications. I ended up going back the first of the year and things have been great, we still argue from time to time but it definitely doesn't end like our past arguments. We found out that we were expecting a couple of weeks ago and the first thing that came to mind when I found out was that I needed to get an abortion. I just thought to myself that we are not even close to being ready for children at this point, our marriage needs so much work, we need so much work that it would be a horrible idea to bring another life into the picture. I told him I didn't want to keep the baby and we scheduled a abortion to be done. He supported my decision and ended up taking me to the appointment. While at the appointment I got my ultrasound done and I glanced at the screen and seen the baby, I asked the ultrasound tech if I could see and she said yes. I instantly fell In love and told myself "I cant do this" the ultrasound tech told me not only was I pregnant but I was carrying twins. I told her that I wanted to wait and talk to my husband about everything before I went any further. I went outside and told my husband that I was pregnant with twins and I was battling with the decision on whether to move forward with the abortion. My husband was excited, said he would love to have twins and that ultimately the decision was up to me and that he would support me with whatever decision I made. I made the decision of not going through with the abortion. My family was already having a hard time with me going back to my husband and now they were having a harder time with me even considering keeping children. My sister kept pressuring me to go behind my husbands back and have an abortion and to just tell him that I miscarried, I just couldn't do that to him or myself or the babies. Of course I have my own concerns with my marriage especially with our past. I'm afraid his change is only temporary and that things will go back to the way they used to be later on down the road with the abuse and I refuse to raise children in a household like that, I know what its like, its how I grew up. I'm afraid that I will eventually be a single mother due to domestic violence. On the other side of the spectrum I have hope and faith in my husband, i hope he has learned from our past and he has changed and i hope that he will continue to be a loving spouse and father. I know at the end of the day its ultimately my decision on everything but i just need some different perspectives, some advice, insight from any women who have been in my shoes.