broken_mirror wrote:I used to think I had Tourettes until I found out I had DID.
Repetitive movements, jerky motions I couldn't control, randomly punch the air,
even a quick blurtation of something...
It turned out it was my 'kids' inside. Stress aggravates them
and I find it I pay attention to what's bothering them, they calm down.
They just want to be heard and will lash out if you're ignoring something important.
I can relate.
neveralone wrote:Yeah we get these jerks and random noises sometimes. I've noticed that they occur more at night time when Catey's tired and less able to keep everyone back. They happen to us alters too when we've been out too long.
neveralone wrote:No, no one ever takes responsibility for these movements. I don't know quite how to explain it but I'll try. It's a movement made by an alter on the inside that comes through when the barrier between inside and outside isn't holding as stongly as it normally would. Like when we're tired or when we're very preccouped with something else and for some reason when we're cold. They are mostly unintentional and to everyone else just looks like a tic of some sort. Most people are polite enough not to draw attention to them.
In my case they are specific kids reacting to stress or triggers, and
depending on the 'tic' I can usually tell which one is being triggered (I've done a lot of work for this though)
however they can't stop it sometimes, it's like scratching an itch.
F tends to blurt the same "nonsense" words whenever he or I am stressed about a specific thing
and he's only been able to bring it down to a quiet under the breath but even though he knows he
shouldn't say it in public it burst out sometimes anyways.
In most cases I don't know WHY they're reacting (when I do, it's because I've had experience with it)
I usually have to re-examine my situation and how I'm dealing with it.
Most of the time I've been worrying about how people are thinking about me or I get a flashback trigger,
or sometimes someone reminds me of someone I don't want to think about.
Sometimes we're tired, sometimes we're hungry.
You won't always know who it's bothering right away. Sometimes you can ask, quietly, or ask one of the other
kids if they know, but unless you know your whole system (which I don't think I do, although I think I'm close,
after almost two years) then sometimes it's one of the ones stuffed away that haven't dealt with their stuff yet.
Sometimes, it takes a little while to figure out who it is anyways, even if it's one you're used to.
When I have a switch sometimes it takes us a while just to figure out who is out!
Other times we know right away.
Some of my most exaggerated movements turned out to come from my exiles (the littlest kids hiding away)
and it wasn't until I had gotten it safe enough for them to come out, and slowly talk, that I realized who it was
coming from. It also helped me sleep, because at that point I realized most of the exaggerated movements
were also caused by the hypervigilant F who was awake at night while I was asleep!
Don't worry, stuff starts off pretty weird but it eventually starts to make a LOT of sense