Hi all, I'm really DDNOS but that board doesn't seem very active, with many threads getting 0 responses so I thought I'd try here. My intro post is over there though if that interests you.
Also, I googled and found an old thread about this that I could have added to, but I didn't want to be a necromancer as that thread was years old.
How do you know who is your core? Does it seem it's somehow a genuine you?
This question has been burning in my mind for a couple days now and my current feeling is that there is no core here. I (current Adult) was born to lead the system just two years ago, I know who was leading before me but no further than that.
It may well be that I just am not being let into that knowledge, I'm "just" another alter (albeit I'm the one who handles most of the daily life - but I do become an equal with a body and all if I go inside). There are some alters who know more about the system than I do, such as World's Strongest Girl, but they usually don't disclose anything, they want me to figure stuff out by myself but they give me strength and tools to do it.
My littles had been demanding to watch The Lion King for a couple weeks so we did it last night, and there too was the theme of remembering who you are. What a coincidence. It also seemed my littles remembered many scenes from the movie and I didn't.
Either they are trying to wake me up to "remembering the original one", OR they enjoyed the theme because they themselves were found only quite recently. (I do all I can to help them recover from their respective traumas and teach them to express their wants and needs, to get the childhood experiences we originally missed out on due to not having a safe adult around. We are also in therapy.)
This weird feeling may be that soon I find the truth about the Core, but as long as I haven't, this bugs me so much.
Thanks for reading,
SG