I want so much to just blurt out everything to my new therapist about how I know I have DID and was misdiagnosed BPD but I'm so scared that I'll end up not being believed and taken seriously (which is what has kept me refusing *actual help* for so long - I had several therapists but none of them have helped anything really ...oh and just fyi there's no way in hell we'll accept integration )
I want to be honest but obviously self-diagnosis is looked down upon and there are so many risks and issues with trying to get help with anything DID related due to all the stigmas, horrible portrayal by media, misinformed judgements etc.,
I don't know what to do because I just f*cking know it's DID. I've never been so sure of anything in my entire life...
but every one else's doubt in me makes me feel like it's not even worth seeing a therapist any more because they haven't helped anything and it feels like at this point it's better to give up completely :/ All I want is to be taken seriously and I'm just so sick and tired of getting worse when I'm supposed to be getting "better" from people I should be able to feel supported by
anyways sorry for the rant I'm just sick of being stuck like this for so long when I know I don't have to be