niva wrote:***MOD EDIT***
Oh, little one, I hope those memories are healed. I hope the bad feelings are rinsed away, and the scars are soothed, and they don't hurt any more.
Do you guys know if there is someone else? Someone younger? A baby maybe?
niva wrote:***MOD EDIT***
Will not. I'll keep talking to you here.
niva wrote:I was thinking that she might be wanting to connect from someone outside? Could this be? She felt safe in J's arms, so maybe she wants to bond with someone outside?
She is very scared to, very hesitant. Even with J she pretended to be ok, though she was ok when they cuddled. I don't know who, though it's interesting you ask. Earlier today we were watching this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F0ANPzoWdRY and wanting to share it with our best friend, who knows about us… but I don't know if it's a good idea… if she'd be willing… Our T of course comes to mind, but I don't know. She's talked to him before without pretending to be ok. She was very honest ad very brave. She told him what she writes here (except the white words; she didn't want to talk about that stuff). He was so good to her. She was so confused. She associates him with being very confused.It is scary on my part too, to let her front with others around, so we're both hesitant. Something to think about/consider, maybe talk to our friend and little n about… Any idea is worth trying!
Humm... It's completely normal to feel hesitant about it. It means opening up, being vulnerable, and that's scary.
The video of Georgie and Sammy was beautiful. I had only seen another old documentary made of MPD (at that time), so seeing them, is amazing, and beautiful. I like what Georgie says about speaking up, and talking about stuff to break the stigma.
Don't feel pressured about letting her front with others around. Do so when you feel comfortable with someone as you did with J. Maybe your best friend would be eager to bond with her as well. You all will decide what's good for you. Aiden surely will give you great insight about it.
niva wrote:Thank you so much for your ongoing support Sea. You are a truly wonderful and amazing person <3
Hey N, I remember one day reading the first entry I read from Jane (at that time). She was brave and scared, but so brave. I guess I bonded with her, and her words, and with you all. I see how much you do for her, how patient you are, how loving. I truly want her to feel better, and to know there's hope, and that she's so worthy, and that she can and is loved, and for her, and thus you all, to heal together. For her to play, and enjoy what littles enjoy, playing, and being mesmerized by nature, and enjoying a safe hug.
So, yup, thank you guys for letting me feel, and experience this with you, for letting me be part of your process, for letting me walk with you, and learn with you.
Take care, sending lots of love.
Sea