We went to an interview with a therapist yesterday. B. was worried the clueless/apathetic teenager that s/he usually is would show up and was very highly dissociated prior to the appointment. As soon as we got out of the car, Alex, a friendly, sturdy and conscientious part, took over and handled the paperwork and interview, explaining some details about us without revealing too much (in case this woman is not safe). But we felt his questions did not deal enough with the emotional trauma side of things and it was a concern. B. ended up coming out and was completely disoriented even though he had been partly present during Alex's time. Rather than saying, "I switched," he tried to carry on and it was a bit messy. The therapist, aware I think that she was just being interviewed and maybe not wanting to be intrusive, did not not question us about what was happening. Or maybe did not notice. (But if she didn't notice, that's a problem.) But B. had no thoughts and couldn't think of anything to say. So we wasted some time and it was awkward.
The therapist was clearly very experienced and competent. She sees many DID people a week and had practical ideas on many subjects. what we talked about didn't seem that deep, more like DID housekeeping. Alex doesn't deal with past stuff and couldn't address it with her. Several of us thought she could be good. She didn't seem especially warm and nurturing, was more factual and distant, but friendly and accessible, too. We have an appointment with another specialist on Saturday.
It's going to be hard to make decisions when we are so not well, even if some of us are doing fine. Thoughts?