TRIGGER WARNING, JUST IN CASE
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Were confused. we dont know who is who anymore? what belongs to who, nameas and all, afraid we cause fragmenting on purpose or something, mapping others while they can be the same, but theyre not the same. It feels pretty stupid, as if we lost ability to communicate somewhat, now I think maybe someone in this system has not as good communication, an girl I think. Young. not sure about her age. Im 12!
We hear names, we dont know. Its maddening. Only names. no response back, but there is an quality to it. Not sure if it our brain playing tricks, as if it goes searching, seeking.
I feel trapped.
Thought we had somewhat good communication and all, but it seems not the case right now.
We sometimes just get names popping up, we think theyre actual people inside the system.
Now, its as there are some people here, more close to the surface, sensing them, but not hearing what they say. friends You know who we are You just don't remember Perhaps we should take an step back or something?
maybe our system is just obsessed with names and all?
Im not sure. its very confusing.
I have no idea who i am. is my name ned? i dont know.
Now we go blank again, dissociative like blank.
I dont know what to do
maybe i dont want to believe at this point and were hitting another wall? we know our system is that big
many similar, many confusion
And now all goes spinning and anxious, hearing an voice somewhat faint, who I am sure of is someone.
Sigh