POSSIBLE TRIGGER WARNING
so, found a therapist specialised in DID.
Mailed her with a heads up. (size of system, current crisises, diagnoses)
Reply:
I d love to speak to Minnie, in the session as you are THE ANP.
You can tell me about the parts and the Inner world.
You can draw them, it s helpful to visualise them.
As some of you may know - in DID there are VARIOUS ANP s who take over the body - hence communcition is very important. The fact she singles me out as the only one worries me.
I can t stand another round of how I need to take control, keep everyone in order, I m not the boss of any of them!
So I fear she doesn t grasp DID as in making a mistake into qualifyin me as the ONLY ANP.
Tell about the other parts? Vicky knows everyone, I dont. So if you want to get the full picture you ll need Vicky to come. She s not telling me anything. And parts? honestly? Alters please. I don t want her to call anyone a 'part' of 'MInnie' the ANP. Or 'the memories of the year....'
Drawing them? I wrote her this is a polyfragmented system. Where d we find the paper?
I mailed her to clarify her view on treatment. So I ll see.
I just don t see why it s so hard for professionals to be open to talk to alters. I mean, they hold valuable information about why they do what htey do and don t tell me most of the time, apart from that I TRIGGER WARNING end up dead a lot in the Inner World - and the one hosting needs help at that point, not to be told to buckle up and just accept he or she is Minnie END TRIGGER WARNING.
I was so exited - I m waitin for the mail - but are the alarm bells I m hearing ringing for you too?