How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Couldn't sleep and this day is going way too slowly. I just wish it was over already -___-

I'm kinda upset right now because no one told me that the work schedule changed and I missed two days of work, Monday and Tuesday. I was able to make up 6 of the 16 hours I missed today so I'm hoping I can come in tomorrow or the weekend to make up the other ten.

Today and yesterday were weird. I kept feeling like each hour is a different day, and felt disconnected to what happened previously in the day. Also, i could not remember credit cards passwords again even though ive been using them for literally years...i hate when that happens at the store.

Im-pure wrote:Today and yesterday were weird. I kept feeling like each hour is a different day, and felt disconnected to what happened previously in the day. Also, i could not remember credit cards passwords again even though ive been using them for literally years...i hate when that happens at the store.

I hate it when I forget my PIN number, especially when it's something that should be simple for me to remember.

I am feeling pretty depressed today. We were diagnosed with DID yesterday.
My university summer semester is wrapping up and it has been hard to focus and write papers. I am going to fail one class for sure, but I am trying to stay positive.
I know that our ability to even get out of bed and get anything done right now is proof of how much DID has allowed us (some of the alters) to live (semi-) normal lives.

I feel very dissociated and switchy. Trying to have a "me" day. So far so good. Besides having a good day, I've been switching out with a few of my alters rapidly.

Host

I feel fine. Host is a little stressed. Had a triggering night, but Gatekeeper wouldn't let me out. Now the "me" day is so that we can calm down. Doing great so far, even though for us it's still pretty early in the morning. We are switching very rapidly, so I only have a few minutes or seconds left.

Alyssa

Love the day. It's so nice and warm. A little dissociated, not as much as Host, but still there. My head is pounding because we are switchy. Going to have to take a nap later today. "Me" day is going well.

Allison

I feel depressed and about to cry.
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I don't want to live anymore. I want to hurt the body but there is nothing here for me to do so. It is so frustrating. I feel so low. I don't want to live. Can I just go to sleep and never wake up?
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I'm feeling good today. I had my sleep test and I feel it went well. I get the results next week and I hope it comes back with good results. My mom still thinks there's nothing wrong with me but I'd rather have the test done just to reassure me that I have nothing wrong or if they find something, how to deal with that.

Feeling a little bit scared that I'm going to be out for a long time. Hoping that Host comes back tomorrow. Feel like crying too. Always feel like crying. Have a stomach ache too. That hurts.

Devyn

I'm too freaked out to even think straight right now. Just found out we have an alter I didn't know about.