How are you today thread (trigger warning)

I'm nervous, but resolved; today is the day I tell my boyfriend I have Dissociative Identity Disorder. This man is my life partner, and only over my dead body will there be secrets in this relationship. I'm ready to take this step in letting him know who I am, completely.

I ended up chickening out, and not telling him.

not doing well today. no idea why. ill get through this mood swing but right now im just sad.

I'm scared. We have therapy tomorrow and Christian has been cutting. It is nowhere that shows, but I'm afraid she'll ask and then I'll either have to be honest or try to lie and I don't know which would be worse right now. It's nothing real deep, but it's cutting, just the same.

She also wants us to bring the journal from the trauma unit and the book of poetry we wrote when we were there. I'm not sure if I'll be able to deal with the pressure of the others inside. I don't want them to come out.

KK

Fuzzy today. Detaching alot. Hard to write longer posts and have longer conversations. Words just aren't fitting together well.


Good luck with your appointment! I would say to be honest with your T. They can't help if they don't know. All the info you can give them will help them help you. Maybe try giving it to the at the end of the visit have them read it when you're not sitting there? That's what I did and it helped a bit. Hope it goes well!

I'm okay I guess.

Yesterday I told a friend of mine about my different parts. It was a relief. Now I feel pretty good about it, that she knows. Today has been a good day so far.

I'm good. I'm a bit stressed since I've been trying to find a summer job and I recently talked to my doctor about my symptoms so I hope I can schedule an appointment with the neologist to get the EEG scan I need to get. Still nervous about that because it might say something's abnormal and then I'll be sent to a psychiatrist. It was hard enough talking to my doctor about it and I feel even more uncomfortable talking to strangers face to face about my problems. But all in all I've been good.

This is the second day in a row when I've been really exhausted. Now I'm already just waiting for a decent time to go to bed (it's just 8:17 PM and I've been waiting for a good while!), because I'm literally too tired to even entertain myself with something simple. Heck, sitting in front of the computer feels like work and I have to go and lie down now and then, it's ridiculous!
-Lin

I am a bit annoyed right now. Coming out due to a trigger hurts the body, which in turn hurts me. I have a bad headache right now because of the switch. It is also too hot for my liking here, but I am glad for the alone time. Host is also having problems that can't seem to go away. It is putting pressure on Protector and I to 'fix' things. I don't like the added pressure. I am all around frustrated with what has been going on in our life.

I am spending too much time trying to guide our Host and all I am accomplishing is angering her. I will leave her alone for some time.