How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Hi to everybody! And we rested a lot. Too much Mary says. But Charity was feeling sad and Mary thinks it is Rachel making her feel that way. Cuz Rachel is mad at everybody. But most of us are not afraid of Rachel even though she wants us to be. And I do not think that helps anymore. But mostly I mind my own business except when something funny happens. Cuz it is good to laugh.

Joseph

we rested too! lots. watched a movie and then scarfed three novels back to back. (wrapping up a series) it was good to have a pajama day.

today is a return to regularly scheduled duties. 《《《sigh》》》

ShawTrav wrote:Then he paused and said "Never mind, your heartless, so just forget it."

I get those kind of comments too. buy then also comments about me being so nice and kind. so it confuses me. I'm kind and heartless? what?

I wish I could punch that HR bitch right in the face I am so mad! but I know I cant. I don't really want to hurt anybody so it's confusing. it's like I just wish I could for the satisfaction. idk.

maybe I will just play video games today and not do my chores.

that would be bad.

things are still topsy-turvy

Hi

Iain said I could post here.

I feel bad because I dropped our new pills in the sink and some of them went down the drain. I'm really really sorry. I just wanted to see them because they are a different color than the old ones and I think they are really pretty and I didn't mean to drop the bottle. I'm really really really sorry and I know they are SUPER expensive and I'm not suppose to ever touch them. I messed everything up and now we have to ask for more and that's going to make Host feel stupid and I'm sorry.

Iain says not to worry about it because it was an accident but I do worry anyway. I'm really stupid.

Evan

Youre not stupid Evan. Mistakes happen.

We're at music camp right now and we're in the room we'll be staying in. It's so big! and we have it to ourselves

Hi Sasha,

Music camp sounds cool. Hope you get to do some fun things. Thanks for being kind to Evan. He's kind of down right now.

Iain

Me too and I hope Evan cheers up soon. I don't like it when my friends are sad.

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.....ugh.....

struggling not to freak out.
i did the end-of-the-month-finance-check.
there is too much money. WAY too much money.
i thought i was pretty sure that we ate this month.
where does all that money come from!!??
i know i should be happy but this is creepy.

Trauma Trigger Warning

Struggling, regretting the abuse revealed in the system regarding t*sticlaes. Remember in high school kids would say deeeesss n*ts lol, can't remember if that was from a movie or song.....So everytime I get ready to write the word 'these', I'm instantly triggered and need a different word....I don't know how else you can keep a florid system safe, but to be kindda nonchalant about it....Everyone wants to know what happen with trauma alters, its either allude it or treat it likes it wasn't nothing and laugh at it........If only about 7 or 8 trauma alters lets just say that leave about 300 or so seem like they want to know this data too often that I'm willing to share....I don't know how I'm ever going to come off as real to someone!!!! We as a system feel so distorted and traumtized from it ALL....End Trigger

out for a work thing - things felt "normal" for a reasonable amount of time. Felt quiet. felt like whoa. I was wrong. There is no DID. there are no alters. It's gone!

then I got back to my hotel room......quiet space alone. and...... we are here.

fcuk.