Heres a quick intro, I am a 20 year old college student, live in a nice house in a nice area, have been the captain of sports teams, and have had many friends as well as girlfriends. Not to toot my own horn, but I have a big personality, a great sense of humor, and consider myself one of the smartest people I know, even though I generally take shortcuts in school and underachieve grade wise. That said, I am sure that no one would suspect how miserable I really am most of the time, especially because I have no reason to be.
There have been times in my past that I have felt really down, not necessarily suicidal, but just didn't want to do anything at all. Now that it is summer and I am home from school away from friends, its getting worse and more frequent. The other day I came home from my lawn mowing job and was so angry that I snapped at anyone who talked to me, and went right to my room. My parents asked me today whats always wrong, and I really don't have an answer, I just can't be happy like normal people it seems. I desperately want to be, but I don't think my personality can allow it. I'm looking for suggestions from you guys, because I don't know how to change myself.
p.s. I have been smoking more pot, which seems to always make me feel better, even though people will knock that I'm sure.