Hello,
it's been a while since I've been on these forums. I just need support right now. I don't have a therapist and I won't until mid-september. Unless I muster up the courage to contact the resources given to me from planned parenthood. I just recently did a Big Move across the country. I'm not adjusting well at all. If I don't need to go into the city, I stay in my room all day. Literally all day. I'm eating okay though.
I haven't thought about suicide in a long time. But it's starting to creep into my thoughts more and more. I haven't told any of my friends because I've been doing so well and I don't want them to think I'm relapsing. But I'm scared that I'm, as medical professionals would say, "decompensating."
I've been hearing voices, I'm having psychotic symptoms again (I'm schizoaffected - depressive type). I decided to post in the mood portion of the forum though because the symptoms bothering me the most are my depression, not the psychosis. But it's important to bring it up because it's playing a part in my depression I feel like.
I don't know what to do. I just want a huge or maybe a frappe. I don't know. I don'tk now. I'll be safe, but the thoughts are becoming more serious-feeling and I'm scared that I'll act on it impulsively. I don't know. Sorry.