Subject37 wrote:I've had to live with this idea since I was twelve. Five years later, it's just gotten worse. Honestly, it's a thought that's made me doubt living. And I question, why do I live? I think it's so that I can understand reality and how this planet works as best I can. I want to study sciences for the rest of my life, until the damn day I die. But that's just me. I wish I could help, any of you, but I also need help for it, too. This is the only way I feel like I can help myself; learning. Understanding everything I can will be my way of life. I guess, who gives a $#%^ if we're insignificant? At least we've got a lot of stuff to learn about our planet, and even though it seems we're running out of things to learn, there's still all the stuff that's been known for thousands of years that we've yet to put into our heads.
I hope all of you can try this outlook. I think our next evolutionary level will be how much we can process and understand; intelligence. It's already getting there, it seems, so why not try exercising your brains? Teach your children about these concepts, and try to get them to expand their brains. Make them love learning.
I thought that i wanted to understand the world, like you. Then i noticed what a lazy, uncurious punk i am. I wake up in the morning vowing to learn something new, slog through the day, sleepwalk through my academics with no interest whatsoever, go to bed hating myself; cycle repeats. Sometimes when i'm walking around in my usual spaced out, introvert mentality, i force myself into alertness:to observe everything around me, to listen closely to the sounds of the environment. Bascially trying to "make the most of my five senses," I try to force myself to enjoy every minute of it...never lasts very long.
But i do consistently want to know how other people think, and not in a malicious way either. I always wonder what it would be like to temporarily "be" somebody else (as in have their conscious) to see how they deal with reality. This could be anyone from the somewhat from a the simple folk of the countryside to intellectuals like Steven Hawking. I also try to fathom what it would be like to be a...woman, as stated in my first post. And i REALLY hope its just existential curiousity and not a true longing to be the opposite sex becuase i would consider that a problem. (But c'mon you've got to admit, women are fascinating creatures.) I believe i do this because...i got nothing. I don't know what to do in this life, and need to follow the lead on someone, anyone.
Anyway thanks for the input. Yes, maybe my future children will have the love of learning, of course they would have to NOT inherit my genes.
-- Wed Feb 01, 2012 2:18 am --
Remis Fargo wrote:outsiders: less popular people? Are you a loner?
I'm somewhat of a loner. About socializing...it does help...for the amount of time that i'm socializing. Then i fade back in to nobody right after. But believe me, even other weirdos don't want to listen to about how "life is an illusion" and what sick things i coaxed my sister into ect.