Hello - my story

Hy this is my story:
The whole thing started about 5 months ago, in one night when i started to think about life and things like: why are we leaving, who are we, what is this reality... suddenly i had a feeling of living a dream, i felt unreal... after that i had a panic attack... i was so scared in that night... i taught that i would gonna' die, or go insane...
All my life i was scared about diseases and death...
I don't smoke, drink or take drugs...
I'm having strange dreams and when i wake up I'm still having the sensation of that dream... also I'm having a constant fear of going insane...
I'm also having memory loss and the whole world appears strange and unknown. Also no emotions
When I'm having a panic attack, i need to talk with someone, to distract my attention and to forget the panic attack.
I called the ambulance in one night, when i had a very intense panic attack. When the ambulance arrived, i told the doctors that i felt unreal... they said that i should go to the hospital for some analysis... and for surveillance... I taught that i was gonna die...
When i went to the hospital, results where good. I didn't have any organic disease, only a small lack of calcium and magnesium. They told me to go to a psychologist... my diagnosis was "panic attack"...
I went to a psychologist, and it had some effect, but only temporary... now it's back again... i didn't went any more to the psychologist, because it was too expensive and i started to feel alright...
Here are my symptoms:
- blurry vision
- unreality
- no emotions
- a very intense fear
- strange dreams
- fear of loosing control
When I'm having a panic attacks, these are my symptoms:
- intense fear
- sensation of suffocating
- unreality
- heart race beating increases
- the tenation of calling the ambulance
So i don't know exactly is this... I'm afraid of having a dangerous disease or even worse... every day I'm having the unreality feeling... after a deep and long research, i found something about "depersonalization" so i asking you a question:
I'm having DP? From these symptoms and my little description...
Thanks... all the best,
Cheers from Romania.

Also, can you please give me some advices?
Advices like: what should i eat, what kind of activity should i do?
I really wanna get rid of this... and be the person that i was!
P.S: It will go away by it's own?
P.S.S.: I'm 15 years old.
Bye.

Hello again.
For those who want to talk about depersonalization disorder/derealization, here is my YM adress:
andreyutzandrei76@yahoo.com
I need to talk with somebody... I can speak English, so i hope things will work well.
Thanks,

Hello Audrey. I just wanted to let you know you're not alone. I get the same exact thing word for word. I think I could deal with the unreality if it wasn't accompanied with the paralyzing fear. I become preoccupied with it which in turn just causes more attacks. It's a vicious circle. It doesn't help that I'm laid-off atm, so all I can do is sit and dwell on things.These feelings usually go away though( I'm sure my DP will leave when I get called back to work) So take hope there is light at the end of the tunnel.

Thanks, much aprreciate.
When i wake up for at least 2-3 hours I'm having a weird sensation, like the emotions from a dream, like unreality.
I'm still having DP; severe i must say, so i don't know what to do. I'm having no good emotions from the past, and when i start to think about the past, i'm having a feeling of unreality and a stranger to myself. Also, the world appears unknown.
I'm having a dream-like emotion all the time, especially at night. I don't know what to do... i feel like a new person, with new feelings and new thoughts... my old feelings are just "hidden" somewhere... i can't describe it exactly.
What should i do? Everyone out there have these symptoms?
pls reply... i really need help.
Thanks..
P.S: I'm having very strange and scary dreams, i am afraid to go to sleep ...
is this really dp?
can you give me some advices, please?

Andrey2009 wrote:Thanks, much aprreciate.
When i wake up for at least 2-3 hours I'm having a weird sensation, like the emotions from a dream, like unreality.
I'm still having DP; severe i must say, so i don't know what to do. I'm having no good emotions from the past, and when i start to think about the past, i'm having a feeling of unreality and a stranger to myself. Also, the world appears unknown.
I'm having a dream-like emotion all the time, especially at night. I don't know what to do... i feel like a new person, with new feelings and new thoughts... my old feelings are just "hidden" somewhere... i can't describe it exactly.
What should i do? Everyone out there have these symptoms?
pls reply... i really need help.
Thanks..
P.S: I'm having very strange and scary dreams, i am afraid to go to sleep ...
is this really dp?
can you give me some advices, please?

I feel like that right now and I woke up ...I don't remember when a while ago
now I forgot what i was going to say....
oh ya umm ya this started after i questioned our existance and got more spiritually experienced...maybe I'm zooming out of my body or something... although i'm not sure if spirituality has much to do with this subject...

Hello, my name is Alisha. I realize it was a while ago that this was posted, but I just came across it and wondered if your symptoms persisted? If so, to what severity?

Thank you in advance,
I look forward to your reply.

-Alisha

Hi, my name is Ashley. I'm 20 years old; I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder 7 years ago, have experienced several panic attacks, and depression has also gotten the best of me in the past. Out of fear and exhaustion, I was using google to look up some of the symptoms that I've been experiencing for the past 5 months and found your forum. My symptoms seem to be a lot like yours. Everything that I am experiencing is causing my life to crumble around me. I often feel as though I am dreaming when I am awake. I feel like a robot with no feelings. Everyday I fear that I am going insane. My dreams are very vivid and intense. After I wake up, I can still feel the way that I felt in my dream. I have trouble remembering how to spell certain words (I've always been very good at spelling), I frequently have trouble remembering things that have happened in my past.

I have two reasons for messaging you;

1. I am in desperate need of an understanding person to confide in about these issues, and

2. I am wondering if you have gotten any help or figured out exactly what is going on with you?



If you have time, I would love to hear back from you (or anyone that may know something).

all you need to do is do things you dont expect, its like after doing the same $#%^ over and over and over again you get tired of it and feel like a shell of hopelessness as new things seem like small opportunities that mean nothing in substance because they are so small in reality when they are not. so do something you normally wouldnt do, and actually something you can take your time to do, and make sure it sucks. so you can enjoy everything else just that much more