Im at my wits end, I cant stop doubting what if the world isn't real, what if I created it with my mind? But its not like I fully believe it, but it feels like my brain is trying to force me to believe it. I can tell something is wrong. I wish I knew what was going on, ive had this since October 2012 constantly, I feel like ive lost my family and ill never be the same. Im finally seeing a pdoc next week but im so afraid they wont be able to help. Could this be psychosis? People say if im questioning if it is it isn't, but its like im split between the rational and irrational.