Snaga wrote:True. And PF is where I let my drama queen out. But as I'm not myself posting an update in this thread, and am not in a crisis.... meh. I give the nice answer I'll leave my whiney-butt stuff for the daily feeling thread, or the blog section. Which right now is- I'm tired of my eyelids twitching, and my neck always being tight, and always being tense and anxious and feeling as if I'm about to come unglued at any moment. I want to run real fast and run away. I want to cry, even though I ceased to be able to several years ago. I want to just go ahead and die and get it over with. I don't want to die. I don't care. I do care. I don't care. I'm scared. I want to SH so bad 'cause it feels so relieving. I'm everything all at once, and none of it. I'm a mess.
But for me, that's normal.
Can relate. Not laughing at your pain and discomfort, just that I know what you mean. Dunno how we've managed it so far, but looks like neither one of us has fallen apart entirely. Often suggested, but I do find that yoga or walking - any kind of heavy physical activity really - helps with that wound up feeling. At least for me....sometimes. (hug)
voracious lemon I'm sorry to hear you're struggling like that. Seems so hard to find an outlet for those feelings, or lack there of, depending on the case. (hug) for you as well if it's alright.
Feeling kind of unstable myself. Managed to go 24 hours with no si, but not holding my breath about hitting 48. There's so much happening that I'm helpless about that I don't know what else to do anymore. All the other coping mechanisms aren't helping either. Not any of the adaptive ones - self destructive ones are not helping either, but trying to avoid most of those. Just seems like things keep getting worse and nothing ever seems to improve.