How do you feel today? *may trigger

I'm hanging out with B and am trying hard not to think about the whole dad situation...I have a lot to be happy about so am trying to focus on that. It doesn't help that I forgot about his birthday, which was on Tuesday, and didn't remember till today...I know my stepmom will give me hell for that. What can I say I don't remember these things except for people I actually grew up around; he's not one of them.

Huge hugs to all of you.

I wish my depressive episode would lift. I've been feeling really tired. I have my sister and her partner visiting at the moment. While I love having her here, it's forcing me to be social all the time when I just want to go and hide from the world.

Hugs and stay safe guys
Lily

I know that feeling too well lily! Hope you manage to get through it! Could you perhaps suggest putting a movie on just to give you a bit of a break? There's nothing worse than being around people when you're not feeling up to it!

Take care

hugs

mystic

Thanks mystic.

Yeah, movies are a good way around it. I've hidden myself in my bedroom with my laptop to say I've gone to bed early.

Hugs to you too
Lily

Mystic - Thanks for the hugs, hugs back!

Flowing - I hope you're feeling better.

Divided - I think it's understandable that you forgot his b-day. You're right, you haven't been around him, not all of us have photographic memories. I hope your stepmom backs off and doesn't say anything.

Lily - I've often done the same when I was supposed to be socializing with family. Sometimes we just can't deal with it at the moment, so don't feel bad about retreating. One time I actually refused to go downstairs just so I didn't have to engage in conversation, I had my mother bring up food to my room! She told them that I wasn't feeling well. I really hope your depressive episode gets better. I'm always thinking of you, Lil.

As for myself, I'm in such pain right now because I damaged my one eye. I have no idea what I did, two days ago I rubbed it very hard and then after that, it's in immense pain, can't open my eye, and now I have a huge patch over my eye just so I can function. This is horrible. I have no idea what happened to it. I thought it would get better after being bad yesterday. But it just got worse. I'm hoping to god that it will get better in a day or so as I don't want to go to the doctor. Ugh.

Super hugs to everyone.

- EGD.

Ouch! That sounds awful EGD! I know you don't want to go to the doctor but I wouldn't like your eye to get worse. Have you tried rinsing it with cold water or is it too sore?

Take care

Hugs

mystic

^ EGD, mystic is right, you should see your doctor. Eye damage can sometimes result in a loss of vision if left untreated. Its really not worth the risk. If it took two days for the pain to show up its possible that you have a blocked tear duct. Eye drops will usually help until you get it looked at as it is a lack of moisture in the eye that is causing the pain.

-S

Sorry you're finding things difficult gratteciel! I understand how manipulative parents can be.

Stay safe

Hugs

mystic