How do you feel today? *may trigger

Echinacea wrote:@Amanda
Sorry that they are asking you to do something that your not willing to do.
its only natural that it will have felt lonely if your use to going there and now you cant

Thank you.

I was born and raised in that church. I even went to their Christian School. Every friend I ever had who had been a part of my life are gone. It's not as bad as losing my parents but it is a close second. I don't know what you can compare it too. Not a single person from the church called me today to say they missed me. I wish again I could tell you I didn't cut today. I wish I could call a "do over." But there are no "do overs" here. Only a long line of silence.

My friends at college are different. They have been so supportive. This would have been an impossible day with them or my sister. She is talking like she will not go back either. I can't ask her to do that. This church has been a part of her life for longer than I have been around. I hope we may go someplace together, though. I admit I would like that.

Sorry for the rant.

@Amanda
dont be sorry for ranting ...this site this thread is for getting things off your mind.
there is no need to be sorry for that

Im hoping you get to resolve this
for the greater good

Im not a religious person (sorry)
But i do respect the views and beliefs of others

Echinacea wrote:@Amanda
dont be sorry for ranting ...this site this thread is for getting things off your mind.
there is no need to be sorry for that

Im hoping you get to resolve this
for the greater good

Im not a religious person (sorry)
But i do respect the views and beliefs of others

Thank you Echinacea.

I feel anxious, distractions aren't helping

Frostbite wrote:I feel anxious, distractions aren't helping

I don't know if you're a girl or not (and I'm not trying to be sexist) but when normal distractions are not working for me I turn the music on as loud as I can and dance to the music. Sometimes I'll go running even if I already did it once today. Take a hot bath. I like to rip things up sometimes. Jump up and down and scream. That could get you unwanted attention. My neighbor call the police on me once thinking I was being attacked. Watch a comedy show and laugh out loud.

Anyways have a *hug*

Amanda

@frostbite
how you managing now ..did you use any of the things Amanda mentioned?

Hugs are always here remember

Thanks for the reply. Unfortunate those things won't help for me, I'm unable to express myself in such ways, even dancing or screaming is way to much.
I Just woke up and anxiety is still high. I tried watching movie, shower, going to sleep for some hours, but it's not working. I guess I'm stressing for the gp app I have in 2days, last time it was a mess and nearly od after it. Again it's a new person and again he will ask the same questions over and over again, it scares me. They really mess with my mind.

@Frostbite
I know going over the same things again with a new person is scary (if they only read the notes before the App, would save patients having to go through this every time)

You know we will be with you in spirit/in your thoughts when you visit the GP tomorrow


Hugs frostbite

Frostbite wrote:Thanks for the reply. Unfortunate those things won't help for me, I'm unable to express myself in such ways, even dancing or screaming is way to much.
I Just woke up and anxiety is still high. I tried watching movie, shower, going to sleep for some hours, but it's not working. I guess I'm stressing for the gp app I have in 2days, last time it was a mess and nearly od after it. Again it's a new person and again he will ask the same questions over and over again, it scares me. They really mess with my mind.

Just wanted you to know you are in my thoughts and prayers today. Hope things are going better for you.

My mistake, the app is tommorow and not today.
I feel sad right now. One of my pets, a little ferret lady is not doing well. She has been ill for a year now and it's not fair anymore to Let her go on. We fought so hard, 4 feeds a day and lots of meds and operations. I would do it all again if that ment that I would not need to Let her go
If still have some days or weeks but I made the choice.


Thanks for the hugs, I double them and send them back ^^